Desire the Unlimited

There could only be one desire: "to be unlimited" All other desires are nothing but substitutes to this or small fractions of desires leading towards this ultimate desire of being unlimited. The conflict between the "desire to remain being a separated entity" and "desire to become unlimited" makes you go through time and paves your path of life. Desire to change, either personally or one's environment or occupation etc. are also strongly connected with desire for unlimited. Not desiring for change is being bound to existing pattern for reasons such as fear of the new, or loss of secured feeling, attachments so on. Both desiring and non desiring being simultaneously present keeps you where you are now. If your experience is not in total you may either continue with the same situations or get into new situations but for the same experience (as this new situation will help you to experience better). Once you are fully done, after going through your experiences in total, you will automatically get into a unique situation what I call 'situation of transcendence'. Once the desire is transcended you will see yourself in a totally new situation to go through absolutely new experiences. When this happens you would feel in total, with out any conflict at all, have absolute insight and sure sense of direction. The clarity of mind would surpass the clarity of the five senses.

This shift will not be due normal boredom feeling of "I’m not interested anymore, I don’t belong here anymore, I don’t feel like doing anything... I should be doing something else". The next situation or the next new experience will pull you instead of just wishing for a change or escape out or boredom of routine mundane activities. All you can do is keep responding to situations wherever you find yourself. Over a period of time spontaneous actions would arise, this is totally different from minds impulsive action. A chain of events would lead you to what is destined for you... intact you would not even bother about all this when you are in that mode. But on a normal day to day scenario whenever we analyze ourselves we find ourselves with either too many desires or no desire standing out and therefore no clarity of purpose. It cannot stand out...'cause it’s all interconnected any desire starts from you "limited separate entity".... ends with the union with unlimited-ness where time is said to stop 'cause there is no movement in any direction and hence no desire! Until then....keep meditating!

Suddenly you may find one desire standing out strongly among many others, later it may be substituted with another and it goes on. The mind tends to react to that desire with some impulsive reaction. So it’s better to take cumulative aggregation of our desires to decide, if at all the decision has to be taken. But I would suggest allowing the chain of events to take care; of course you will have to respond. Reacting to spike waves of the mind is not a wise thing to do, because if you continue to react it is difficult to know if the desire is still alive or not, as the desire starts working from the unconsciousness and also it keeps multiplying! 'cause waves in the mind give rise to reactions and reactions will maintain the waves of the mind....vicious circle? Mentally accepting that the desire being present is also minds reaction, instead try simply seeing the desire arising and falling, if you feel any response is need allow it, without any thinking and intellectualizing. Reaction of acceptance only reinforces the turbulences of the mind, though it is suggested as the solution it is just the first step. So if you respond with an action which is free from minds reactions it will be spontaneous, true and straightforward. Like having food when hungry, this may seem as a reaction to hunger as long as mind is involved... but spontaneously eating food is pure action if it’s got nothing to do with the exaggerations of the mind. Seems difficult to understand but its simple once the mind gets hold of this truth... and this truth will work against the mind when you intellectually get it right :-) One thing to remember is that objective accomplishments have got nothing to do with feeling accomplished (but mind connects these both) and hence the confusion... mind puts a rule that only if so and so objectives are accomplished there will be happiness, like “only if I go to the mountains I will become peaceful”. Here, is not feeling peaceful more important and going to the mountains? Coming back to hunger example, its like saying only if I eat pizza my hunger will cease, this is the mind, intuitively eating the best among anything available around you to satisfy hunger is your natural response. I will leave you to see the truth as it is for yourself.