Does subject and object continue to coexist?

Entire existence signifies objectivity, to whom? Now here is the subject. Apparently, though it seems that objective presence is always dominating subjective presence, it is only the subjective presence that dominates the objective existence.  And pure subjective presence is complete objective absence!

Creation & Destruction

What is creation?

Can you create something, without destroying anything? If you say yes, be aware, first thing you destroy is the space! Ok leave space for now. If you are going to use some resources for creation, you sure are going to destroy that, though you can claim that you are giving it a new shape, position or attribute. So we can never create anything without destroying.

What is destruction?

Can you destroy something, without creating anything? If you say yes, be aware, first thing you create is space! Ok leave space for now. If you are going to use some resources for destruction, you sure are going to create that, though you can claim that you are giving it a new shape, position or attribute. So we can never destroy anything without creating.

Paradox?

The above paradox is born with our very definition of creation and destruction. Something new, favourable, useful, benefitable and which adds to what we are, we call it creation. Something that is not favourable, not useful, not benefitable and which subtracts from what we are, we call it destruction.

The insights are:

The very definition of creation or destruction is relative.

Creation to some; is destruction to others

Destruction to some; is creation to others.

Our own idea of what we are, defines it.

We can call it creative destruction or destructive creation, but both will mean same.

From the point of infinity and absolute, what would creation or destruction mean?

all

all that were born will die

all that die will be born

all that appeared will disappear

all that disappeared will appear

all that expanded will contract

all that contracted will expand

all that is perceived will be forgotten

all that is forgotten will be perceived

all that came together will separate

all that separated will come together

all that was delighted will turn disgusting

all that was disgusting will turn delightful

all these you know, still you are born birth after birth

you killed all and all that killed you

you ate all, and all that ate you

you bore all and all that bore you

you cherished all and all that cherished you

you exalted in prosperity, wept in poverty

you rejoiced in pleasure, suffered in pain

you experienced all impermanence and still consider this body bubble as your permanent abode

all that is, will not be

all that is not, will be

oneness

Oneness is born when the divisions subside may be the saying... but are the divisions true? Do they exist in reality? you will know better when your perception is free from divisions and inhibitions, filters, assumptions so on.

You can say it is non obstructive state of seeing, otherwise you only see thru filters of time, with the burden of past memories and other divisions follow and make the perception further limited

Now from this non obstructive state you can see without filters, attachments, expectations, anxieties and with a deeper true perception which is real for once, once we know the insignificance, impermanence and uselessness of the sense objects bound within time, we get to see the real....

I know this is tricky, ‘cuz I can simply get lost in this!

What moves?

The way mind communicates and expresses is bound to be misinterpreted. To the mind the rivers and ocean are separate as the frame of reference is within time and at that place rivers are far away from the ocean. If they are not two, can Ganges flow up stream?:-)

There are not two: we would know they are not two when we see it from the ocean.

Expression and communication will need division and discrimination of intellect and mind. Sun cannot move from west to east, and you cannot hold sun responsible for its movement from east to west. You move away from earth and you will know that the sun doesn't move at all.

Again... move further away and lo! you find the sun along with its planets move around a point in the galaxy.

The path of intellect

Human intellect is helpless when it tries to perceive absolute self through vibrations of mind, body and actions. Through mind, the intellect is powerful to discriminate and create a complex world for itself, and the same intellect can work through towards the absolute self by the same forces of discrimination if applied beyond mind. But this is where there seems to be a catch:

When intellect is applied through mind, the objects of knowledge come and go. The mind can entertain objects that come within the scope of limited time, space and ego. But when the intellect is surrendered to the ideation of the absolute self, it takes you beyond the triple states of physical, psychical and spiritual realms and then the divine merger happens.

Cause and Effect

Can there be an effect without a cause?

Can there be grace through effort?

Can there be happiness without grace?

Can there be true perception with out happiness?

Can there be be enlightenment without true perception?

yes!... anything is possible if there are no dependencies

Beginning of Timelessness...

Absurd?

How the hell can there be a beginning to timelessness?

What’s the message?

That question is raised in time, but the statement does not anticipate this question, because it’s timelessness J Since it’s got a beginning its not timelessness and tendency is to get trapped in time with anticipation and get out of timelessness! This signifies beginning of time. If there is just timelessness where is the question of anticipation etc, it is just what it is now.  So there is no beginning then why the statement "beginning of timelessness"?

But when did I know that there is no beginning? Yes timelessness cannot have a question, when? But when did I know that? Simple ... as soon as I’m in time I should have 'known' timelessness, of course I can I’m in time when I perceive change I don’t need any proof.

But to perceive time I have to be out of time.

I’m perceiving time and I’m out of it and so is that the beginning of timelessness then, I can’t say perceiving of timelessness is its beginning because timelessness seems to be there always! If perceiving of time can begin time why not perceiving of timelessness begin timelessness. If I perceiving has got nothing to do with beginning... then time and timelessness should coexist! That’s not beginning for timelessness... in time?

Perceiving timelessness in time?

Do I want to prove there is no beginning?! “when I perceive" is itself in time as WHEN signifies time. Yes as long as I perceive it is in time and then it will have a beginning...and not until I come out of timelessness J If perceiving of time can begin time why not perceiving of timelessness begin timelessness. If me perceiving has got nothing to do with beginning... then time and timelessness should coexist!

So both time and timelessness are coexisting same time and I can perceive anything anytime!

And hence it’s beginning of timelessness ... 'cuz its time already. So time is just a speck of timelessness, it’s like a small unit of infinity. Well logically it seems to make sense, but again timelessness can also go the other side negative infinity which seems it’s in time when this happens its beginning of timelessness, ... back to square one!, yeah tough to comprehend!

But then if there could be beginning of timelessness there should be end of timelessness which is beginning of time itself... besides did time give birth to timelessness or timelessness give birth to time?.....Or do both coexist all time, if they coexist then nothing gave birth to anything, if nothing gave birth to anything, there is no beginning. But end of timelessness is beginning of time and end of time is beginning of timelessness

There can be no end as they coexist? If there is no end to time then there is timelessness and as the same time, there is no time. Again, if there is no end to timelessness then there is time then there is no timelessness. And that’s why they coexist!

Both cannot be different when they coexist same time in timelessness Also, without time there can be no timelessness and vice versa. But then how did perception fail to perceive timelessness? And when it does, is it not beginning of timelessness? By which “PERCEPTION IS TIMELESS” and hence the absurd statement "beginning of timelessness" triumphs

And both time and timelessness are absurd, they have no meaning.

In the statement, “beginning” signifies time and timelessness is opposite of time.... how can this begin that, this cannot begin that and that cannot begin this and both have no relation?This is why the dispute was raised in the first place. But end of this is beginning of that.

So both have relation and also have no relation, both are interdependent and independent, both are mutually exclusive and inclusive

And so IT’S TIME FOR TIMELESSNESS? 

contemplating on what I am...

A part of me is watching or perceiving and the other part of me is being watched or perceived. Say A is that which is watching is consciousness, then B is that which is being watched is unconsciousness. This A and B relationship creates the world, the existence is alive as along as this duality persists.
Logically simple? Ok lets try complicating... Lets consider the intermediate states:
Pure Consciousness(PC), Collective Consciousness(CC), Collective semi or Sub consciousness(CS), Collective Unconsciousness(CU), Deeper collective Unconsciousness.(DU)
Now when you are in PC state u don’t see anything and when you are in DU state you don’t see anything as well.
When you are in CC you are awake to see the physical beings and the world, you perceive CS, CU and DU and that becomes mental body, physical body and rest of the solid matter in this world.
When you are in CS you are half awake and half sleep to see the mental less solid beings, astral and dream beings, you perceive CU and DU
When you are in CU you are fully asleep and you perceive only DU
When you are in DU you are un-manifest so you don’t see anything but its unstable, now we are left with PC, though even in this state you don’t see anything but you are fully manifest(though you can choose to continue seeing other objects that belong to all other states). There is no unstable unconsciousness that bothers you, so you become eternal, imperishable, without any quality. You become one, the only I’ am.

Boredom

My insights when I was watching boredom, passively ...

It was a good time and perfect and nothing wrong or unpleasant about it. I learned to enjoy monotony and boredom. I saw it was too SIMPLE without any exicitement.
When I started watching myself, the exernal situations and people started to fade out. This brought back my energies to me, it sure was integrating me compared to any other situation that pulled out my energies. It centered me and i started accepting and enjoying boredom! It made me complete and at peace.

flashes!

You fool! what is not here, is nowhere!
Pain would last until you merge with the source!
You are held 'together' and 'seperate' only by ur desires!

im stuck, i want freedom

Dam it! I am stuck , with this materialistic stuff... what can i do?
its all to help u to the right path

how long i will mull in all this shit?
till you exhaust ur life force which seem to be limited only by ur limited conception of your mind... simply start with small actions that dont leave even slightest stain on your mind that will connect you to inexhaustible life force

how is that?
any action performed with limited desires(material, emotional, spiritual etc) will be only backed by exhaustible lifeforce, any action performed without any desire will be backed by inexhaustible lifeforce

yaa, I need to meditate and internalize.... to do actions with out desire ...
man desires to create footprints... later he desires to delete his footprints... only to create again!

:-)

Trying to find something that is everywhere, right through your deepest core?!

Why scurry about looking for the truth? It vibrates in every thing and every not-thing, right off the tip of your nose. Can you be still and see it in the mountain? the pine tree? yourself? Don't imagine that you'll discover it by accumulating more knowledge. Knowledge creates doubt, and doubt makes you ravenous for more knowledge. You can't get full eating this way. The wise person dines on something more subtle: He eats the understanding that the named was born from the unnamed, that all being flows from non- being, that the describable world emanates from an indescribable source. He finds this subtle truth inside his own self, and becomes completely content. So who can be still and watch the chess game of the world? The foolish are always making impulsive moves, but the wise know that victory and defeat are decided by something more subtle. They see that something perfect exists before any move is made. This subtle perfection deteriorates when artificial actions are taken, so be content not to disturb the peace. Remain quiet. Discover the harmony in your own being. Embrace it. If you can do this, you will gain everything, and the world will become healthy again. If you can't, you will be lost in the shadows forever.

perception

That which perceives is greater than that which is perceived, now... can you perceive god? :-)) if you don’t believe in any god, can you perceive yourself? .....that is can you perceive that which perceives?

After a long silence....

I can know what I'am not.....
But why I'am not able to know what I'am?

Desire and Austerity

Desire is not wrong. But then why all religions are against it? Is not desire the basis of life? Desire carries people away. It is not desire that is wrong but its narrowness and limitedness. When your desire increases and expands, you give up your limited entity to attain the unlimited. It is this desire for the infinite transforms into love and devotion. You love your self and you long to be happy, then what makes you suffer? You loving your self stupidly makes you suffer, your indulgence makes you suffer, love your self wisely. Then why austerity is suggested? Austerity is not against desire, both austerity and desire have same purpose: to make you happy. Nobody is imposing austerity on you; it is your own choice.

Going through the same experience again and again and again is indulgence; austerity is not going through the same experience again. Austerity helps you to check your indulgence, and make way for better and new desires to grow in knowledge and experience. We continuously deceive ourselves by imagining small things like food, sex, power and fame will give happiness. Only something infinitely vast and deep such as your real self can make you truly and permanently happy.

So live your life with awareness of your deepest self always. To put it simple and straight, all that you seek is to express in action what you are. For this purpose you have your toolkit :-) your body and your mind, see how they can help you in fulfilling your purpose.

Desire the Unlimited

There could only be one desire: "to be unlimited" All other desires are nothing but substitutes to this or small fractions of desires leading towards this ultimate desire of being unlimited. The conflict between the "desire to remain being a separated entity" and "desire to become unlimited" makes you go through time and paves your path of life. Desire to change, either personally or one's environment or occupation etc. are also strongly connected with desire for unlimited. Not desiring for change is being bound to existing pattern for reasons such as fear of the new, or loss of secured feeling, attachments so on. Both desiring and non desiring being simultaneously present keeps you where you are now. If your experience is not in total you may either continue with the same situations or get into new situations but for the same experience (as this new situation will help you to experience better). Once you are fully done, after going through your experiences in total, you will automatically get into a unique situation what I call 'situation of transcendence'. Once the desire is transcended you will see yourself in a totally new situation to go through absolutely new experiences. When this happens you would feel in total, with out any conflict at all, have absolute insight and sure sense of direction. The clarity of mind would surpass the clarity of the five senses.

This shift will not be due normal boredom feeling of "I’m not interested anymore, I don’t belong here anymore, I don’t feel like doing anything... I should be doing something else". The next situation or the next new experience will pull you instead of just wishing for a change or escape out or boredom of routine mundane activities. All you can do is keep responding to situations wherever you find yourself. Over a period of time spontaneous actions would arise, this is totally different from minds impulsive action. A chain of events would lead you to what is destined for you... intact you would not even bother about all this when you are in that mode. But on a normal day to day scenario whenever we analyze ourselves we find ourselves with either too many desires or no desire standing out and therefore no clarity of purpose. It cannot stand out...'cause it’s all interconnected any desire starts from you "limited separate entity".... ends with the union with unlimited-ness where time is said to stop 'cause there is no movement in any direction and hence no desire! Until then....keep meditating!

Suddenly you may find one desire standing out strongly among many others, later it may be substituted with another and it goes on. The mind tends to react to that desire with some impulsive reaction. So it’s better to take cumulative aggregation of our desires to decide, if at all the decision has to be taken. But I would suggest allowing the chain of events to take care; of course you will have to respond. Reacting to spike waves of the mind is not a wise thing to do, because if you continue to react it is difficult to know if the desire is still alive or not, as the desire starts working from the unconsciousness and also it keeps multiplying! 'cause waves in the mind give rise to reactions and reactions will maintain the waves of the mind....vicious circle? Mentally accepting that the desire being present is also minds reaction, instead try simply seeing the desire arising and falling, if you feel any response is need allow it, without any thinking and intellectualizing. Reaction of acceptance only reinforces the turbulences of the mind, though it is suggested as the solution it is just the first step. So if you respond with an action which is free from minds reactions it will be spontaneous, true and straightforward. Like having food when hungry, this may seem as a reaction to hunger as long as mind is involved... but spontaneously eating food is pure action if it’s got nothing to do with the exaggerations of the mind. Seems difficult to understand but its simple once the mind gets hold of this truth... and this truth will work against the mind when you intellectually get it right :-) One thing to remember is that objective accomplishments have got nothing to do with feeling accomplished (but mind connects these both) and hence the confusion... mind puts a rule that only if so and so objectives are accomplished there will be happiness, like “only if I go to the mountains I will become peaceful”. Here, is not feeling peaceful more important and going to the mountains? Coming back to hunger example, its like saying only if I eat pizza my hunger will cease, this is the mind, intuitively eating the best among anything available around you to satisfy hunger is your natural response. I will leave you to see the truth as it is for yourself.

Uselessness?

Few of them whom I have met in the recent past have been discussing about their feeling the uselessness of all things. But that’s good sign! The main reason for this kind of a feeling is, continuous setbacks, in the sense their dreams and desires continuously not getting fulfilled 'as they had imagined it to be'. So by simply not bothering about 'that' which is feeling the uselessness, would render 'that' useless and there by breaking the dam and causing 'that' to be in the unlimited universal flow. Now are you still bothered of your uselessness, purposelessness, or uselessness of all things etc.?... if yes keep your attention on 'that' which is getting troubled with the uselessness, and find 'that' to have the roots in some established usefulness in the past, or similar mental construct.

blissful sleep

Bliss without awareness, the unaware bliss is same as good sleep. Bad sleep is no sleep at all as your mind is disturbed and there is very little settling down. Good sleep is what you get naturally after the days work, your mind being undisturbed through out the day. Though unaware you get a glimpse of bliss during good sound sleep, and so deep sleep is always so good and refreshing. If unaware bliss is equal to such good sleep then, how will the bliss with full awareness be?

Hunting for the truth?

Why waste time hunting for the truth? It pulsates in every thing that can be percieved. Be still and see it in the mountain, in the trees, and also in yourself. You will never discover it by accumulating more knowledge. Knowledge creates doubt, and doubt makes you greedy for more knowledge. Because the truth is so subtle and the understanding and awareness can open the doors. Understanding that the named objects come out of unamed, beings come out non-being, the world emananetes from empty space, then know that the truth is in your own self and then remain content. Instead of making impulsive moves, be still and watch the world, you will know that it is already perfect, this subtle perfection declines when artificial actions are performed, so just be aware and be blissful. Be still and quiet. Discover the harmony in your own being. Embrace the truth. With this your real actions spring out with awareness. If you can do this, you will gain everything, and in your perception the world will become healthy again. If you can't, you will be lost in the shadows forever.

-Teachings of Tao