flashes!

You fool! what is not here, is nowhere!
Pain would last until you merge with the source!
You are held 'together' and 'seperate' only by ur desires!

im stuck, i want freedom

Dam it! I am stuck , with this materialistic stuff... what can i do?
its all to help u to the right path

how long i will mull in all this shit?
till you exhaust ur life force which seem to be limited only by ur limited conception of your mind... simply start with small actions that dont leave even slightest stain on your mind that will connect you to inexhaustible life force

how is that?
any action performed with limited desires(material, emotional, spiritual etc) will be only backed by exhaustible lifeforce, any action performed without any desire will be backed by inexhaustible lifeforce

yaa, I need to meditate and internalize.... to do actions with out desire ...
man desires to create footprints... later he desires to delete his footprints... only to create again!

:-)

Trying to find something that is everywhere, right through your deepest core?!

Why scurry about looking for the truth? It vibrates in every thing and every not-thing, right off the tip of your nose. Can you be still and see it in the mountain? the pine tree? yourself? Don't imagine that you'll discover it by accumulating more knowledge. Knowledge creates doubt, and doubt makes you ravenous for more knowledge. You can't get full eating this way. The wise person dines on something more subtle: He eats the understanding that the named was born from the unnamed, that all being flows from non- being, that the describable world emanates from an indescribable source. He finds this subtle truth inside his own self, and becomes completely content. So who can be still and watch the chess game of the world? The foolish are always making impulsive moves, but the wise know that victory and defeat are decided by something more subtle. They see that something perfect exists before any move is made. This subtle perfection deteriorates when artificial actions are taken, so be content not to disturb the peace. Remain quiet. Discover the harmony in your own being. Embrace it. If you can do this, you will gain everything, and the world will become healthy again. If you can't, you will be lost in the shadows forever.

perception

That which perceives is greater than that which is perceived, now... can you perceive god? :-)) if you don’t believe in any god, can you perceive yourself? .....that is can you perceive that which perceives?

After a long silence....

I can know what I'am not.....
But why I'am not able to know what I'am?

Desire and Austerity

Desire is not wrong. But then why all religions are against it? Is not desire the basis of life? Desire carries people away. It is not desire that is wrong but its narrowness and limitedness. When your desire increases and expands, you give up your limited entity to attain the unlimited. It is this desire for the infinite transforms into love and devotion. You love your self and you long to be happy, then what makes you suffer? You loving your self stupidly makes you suffer, your indulgence makes you suffer, love your self wisely. Then why austerity is suggested? Austerity is not against desire, both austerity and desire have same purpose: to make you happy. Nobody is imposing austerity on you; it is your own choice.

Going through the same experience again and again and again is indulgence; austerity is not going through the same experience again. Austerity helps you to check your indulgence, and make way for better and new desires to grow in knowledge and experience. We continuously deceive ourselves by imagining small things like food, sex, power and fame will give happiness. Only something infinitely vast and deep such as your real self can make you truly and permanently happy.

So live your life with awareness of your deepest self always. To put it simple and straight, all that you seek is to express in action what you are. For this purpose you have your toolkit :-) your body and your mind, see how they can help you in fulfilling your purpose.

Desire the Unlimited

There could only be one desire: "to be unlimited" All other desires are nothing but substitutes to this or small fractions of desires leading towards this ultimate desire of being unlimited. The conflict between the "desire to remain being a separated entity" and "desire to become unlimited" makes you go through time and paves your path of life. Desire to change, either personally or one's environment or occupation etc. are also strongly connected with desire for unlimited. Not desiring for change is being bound to existing pattern for reasons such as fear of the new, or loss of secured feeling, attachments so on. Both desiring and non desiring being simultaneously present keeps you where you are now. If your experience is not in total you may either continue with the same situations or get into new situations but for the same experience (as this new situation will help you to experience better). Once you are fully done, after going through your experiences in total, you will automatically get into a unique situation what I call 'situation of transcendence'. Once the desire is transcended you will see yourself in a totally new situation to go through absolutely new experiences. When this happens you would feel in total, with out any conflict at all, have absolute insight and sure sense of direction. The clarity of mind would surpass the clarity of the five senses.

This shift will not be due normal boredom feeling of "I’m not interested anymore, I don’t belong here anymore, I don’t feel like doing anything... I should be doing something else". The next situation or the next new experience will pull you instead of just wishing for a change or escape out or boredom of routine mundane activities. All you can do is keep responding to situations wherever you find yourself. Over a period of time spontaneous actions would arise, this is totally different from minds impulsive action. A chain of events would lead you to what is destined for you... intact you would not even bother about all this when you are in that mode. But on a normal day to day scenario whenever we analyze ourselves we find ourselves with either too many desires or no desire standing out and therefore no clarity of purpose. It cannot stand out...'cause it’s all interconnected any desire starts from you "limited separate entity".... ends with the union with unlimited-ness where time is said to stop 'cause there is no movement in any direction and hence no desire! Until then....keep meditating!

Suddenly you may find one desire standing out strongly among many others, later it may be substituted with another and it goes on. The mind tends to react to that desire with some impulsive reaction. So it’s better to take cumulative aggregation of our desires to decide, if at all the decision has to be taken. But I would suggest allowing the chain of events to take care; of course you will have to respond. Reacting to spike waves of the mind is not a wise thing to do, because if you continue to react it is difficult to know if the desire is still alive or not, as the desire starts working from the unconsciousness and also it keeps multiplying! 'cause waves in the mind give rise to reactions and reactions will maintain the waves of the mind....vicious circle? Mentally accepting that the desire being present is also minds reaction, instead try simply seeing the desire arising and falling, if you feel any response is need allow it, without any thinking and intellectualizing. Reaction of acceptance only reinforces the turbulences of the mind, though it is suggested as the solution it is just the first step. So if you respond with an action which is free from minds reactions it will be spontaneous, true and straightforward. Like having food when hungry, this may seem as a reaction to hunger as long as mind is involved... but spontaneously eating food is pure action if it’s got nothing to do with the exaggerations of the mind. Seems difficult to understand but its simple once the mind gets hold of this truth... and this truth will work against the mind when you intellectually get it right :-) One thing to remember is that objective accomplishments have got nothing to do with feeling accomplished (but mind connects these both) and hence the confusion... mind puts a rule that only if so and so objectives are accomplished there will be happiness, like “only if I go to the mountains I will become peaceful”. Here, is not feeling peaceful more important and going to the mountains? Coming back to hunger example, its like saying only if I eat pizza my hunger will cease, this is the mind, intuitively eating the best among anything available around you to satisfy hunger is your natural response. I will leave you to see the truth as it is for yourself.

Uselessness?

Few of them whom I have met in the recent past have been discussing about their feeling the uselessness of all things. But that’s good sign! The main reason for this kind of a feeling is, continuous setbacks, in the sense their dreams and desires continuously not getting fulfilled 'as they had imagined it to be'. So by simply not bothering about 'that' which is feeling the uselessness, would render 'that' useless and there by breaking the dam and causing 'that' to be in the unlimited universal flow. Now are you still bothered of your uselessness, purposelessness, or uselessness of all things etc.?... if yes keep your attention on 'that' which is getting troubled with the uselessness, and find 'that' to have the roots in some established usefulness in the past, or similar mental construct.

blissful sleep

Bliss without awareness, the unaware bliss is same as good sleep. Bad sleep is no sleep at all as your mind is disturbed and there is very little settling down. Good sleep is what you get naturally after the days work, your mind being undisturbed through out the day. Though unaware you get a glimpse of bliss during good sound sleep, and so deep sleep is always so good and refreshing. If unaware bliss is equal to such good sleep then, how will the bliss with full awareness be?

Hunting for the truth?

Why waste time hunting for the truth? It pulsates in every thing that can be percieved. Be still and see it in the mountain, in the trees, and also in yourself. You will never discover it by accumulating more knowledge. Knowledge creates doubt, and doubt makes you greedy for more knowledge. Because the truth is so subtle and the understanding and awareness can open the doors. Understanding that the named objects come out of unamed, beings come out non-being, the world emananetes from empty space, then know that the truth is in your own self and then remain content. Instead of making impulsive moves, be still and watch the world, you will know that it is already perfect, this subtle perfection declines when artificial actions are performed, so just be aware and be blissful. Be still and quiet. Discover the harmony in your own being. Embrace the truth. With this your real actions spring out with awareness. If you can do this, you will gain everything, and in your perception the world will become healthy again. If you can't, you will be lost in the shadows forever.

-Teachings of Tao

KEU - Knowledge, experience and understanding...

Knowledge if outdated becomes out of context for the current situation. Trust in the knowledge, experience and understanding that is available and existing for you NOW. Because the next moment brings new and fresh knowledge, experience and understanding for you to perceive! and so it goes on. Knowledge, experience and understanding thus not perceived at that moment becomes dead and past, that may torment you in future :-)

life and death...

There are many who think, "Nothing more for me to do, I’m just moving towards death"! If that’s the case you would have been dead long back even before you can think of this. Normally people who are too ambitious their desires are never satisfied with small expressive work that they can do immediately. Because they feel that their work or creative expression is too small and limited when compared to the big giants who have accomplished huge credits behind them. Pure expression of creation is withheld due to ego problems of the mind, such as internal fear of criticism, fear of non acceptance, fear of failure so on. Once the mind considers itself too inferior to others a state of non doing settles down, this state of non doing is very different form the state of non doing of a master, who really is the master of consciousness. Moment to moment creative expression though seem like drops of water will transform into a big ocean which IS the flow of universe itself, one has to embrace this natural growth. However apparently insignificant, the smallest flower blooms and participates totally in the 'universal flow'. The decline of pure creative expression conforming to the universal flow, gives birth to other negative virtues like greed, anger and fear. Allow life, allow death, and allow the universal flow. "The Mighty Oak was once just a small nut that held its ground."

showing off will help!

Creation is good... but why showing off? Why that inherent tendency of sharing the creation with people around? Because the reason of creation is mutual not individual. One can understand this when he sees creation as it is, as a whole. Nature creating itself. When we discriminate and see as "I create" then it is followed by need for sharing, opinions of others, appreciation, comparison and all the ego gratification around it. To know this, try showing off your creation to somebody who can give a bad or good opinion about it and carefully observe tendencies, emotions and reactions that follow, that would create a tumble on your creation the next moment...this happened when i tumbled after showing this blog to my dearest master, who spends lot of time making me wise.

create and forget!

What is one supposed to do in this world? In this endless universe that keeps creating and expanding, all that happens is more and more creation, why then destruction? obviously to facilitate more creation. Creation becomes impure when intent is on acceptance, recognition, fame, money etc. creation has to be for the sake of creation! so create and forget. Because if you cling to your creation that obstructs further creation. Any obstruction of creation causes fear, suffering, anget, rejection, depresson etc! So just create and be blissful!

Reality Vs Concepts

Most of us live our lives in mental concepts. Our good and bad values are more of a mental construct fed or programmed by our culture or society. These mental concepts become a great obstacle to direct experience of truth. Every concept restricts the flow of consciousness. Our mind gets attached and identified with many such concepts and eventually is in chaos!

Concept is static it’s got a label. For instance a bird or a tree once conceptualized and labeled in our minds it stops flowing in our perception, in other words it dies to our perception and gets disconnected from our being. It becomes static…it becomes a thought and not feel anymore. We somehow don’t perceive or feel its flow or its ever changing property. Other good example would be the river, once we give it a name or label and put it in a box it loses its flow. In our minds we just have it as a static dead object!.. Flow is moment to moment, it has to be experienced beyond our conceptions of our mind, and at that point truth is perceived.

Our concepts and labels filter out the truth or direct seeing. Our perception is devoid of truth, when perceived through mind it is colored and limited. Our own identification and clinging limits our perception. Once we get to see beyond our mental constructs, belief systems, concepts, clinging, attachments etc in other words once we get to see beyond our mind we are subject to direct seeing, or direct experiencing of truth. You become the truth. Reality is one and concepts are many!

Blissful morning flower

All the scriptures, sayings and songs of the enlightened masters are nothing but expressions of their experience of truth. They have no purpose other than this. Ignorance and craving makes us think that scriptures are for changing the world, or for giving directions to common people. Our mind and intellect want some reasoning of purpose to support our ego.
The world is already perfect and its going in the right direction. Our lack of trust on the existence makes us assume that things are wrong in this world and this usually follow with blaming and other negative emotions. This wrong understanding leads us to suffering, because: "if the world is not right I’m not right" "if I'm not right the world is not right" is just a vicious circle! The questions like what’s my purpose etc have no purpose. Just sing your song and dance your dance. The master's expression of truth is like blissful blooming morning lotus. No purpose, no expectations, just pure expression. Simply responding to your feel and allowing the energies to flow every moment gives the experience of truth. Can anything else be more true than this?

Love... a Prejudiced idea?

Can you really fall in love with other?... You can only fall in love with your own idea of the other! You can fall in love with your own judgement of the other! You can fall in love with your projected mental image of the other... all these are preconcieved notions and far from reality! Real love happens beyond mind and its unlimited and unconditional. Real love happens with complete unlimited trust on the existance... so duality ceases with love, in other words, nonduality is absolute love.

Eligibility?

Who are eligible to get liberated?

Your have to be bound to get liberated. In other words "You are bound to be liberated!"
Liberation and bondage are in the realm of the mind only, truth is "There is no bondage and there is no liberation" because true freedom is beyond both!

How can doing something lead to liberation?

Any doing if based on desire or mind it fails to get you liberated. Non doing and allowing the change to happen will transcend desire, there by truth is attained. How can only a particular action will make you know the truth, any action performed intensively will lead to truth. That’s the way to transcend mind. Intensified actions finish off the stagnant tendencies one by one and finally leading to emptiness or truth. Otherwise mind keeps shifting to something new continuously without finishing off with a particular experience.

Its like accumulating stones without end, when the limit is reached we only replace an existing stone with some new stone, there by taking full load and mind is never free from tendencies and always lack energy. These tendencies act as leeches that keep sucking the limited energy, and also block unlimited energy to flow in for the expansion of consciousness.

Suffering?

Who is suffering? Who ever has built a thorny fence around himself will suffer. The fence hurts him and also others! Remove the thorns from the fence first! But you become more sensible to find that the fence itself hurts. Remove the fence then. But now your entity's dimension expands and you redefine yourself! The meaning of "I" changes, and suffering?.... no trace of it!!!